Wednesday.. yet

Dear You,

Today my heart breaks for i am not there. My heart empties with dispair, i think about the past and how it huants always telling me that i am not the one that your heart truely wants. But i am the one that your heart may settle for. With that in mind i accept my role knowing that i will lose no matter which way i go. For with this time i give myself not blindly but unconditionally.
My mistake takes me away takes me far from the place I'd be if i'd just stayed. I know not where i am headed but i know the final call. There i'll be waiting for thee waiting knowing it is not me that you will see when you reach that final destiny.

Love Forever,
Me 

Wednesday. my heart

Dear you,


Footsteps fade away in my memories and my mind is washed with what should have been. My heart it bleds to give you what can make you live.  While I hold back so I dont fade in your wind. Your transition is so rapid i beg to be free of you but here is stand knowing I am nothing without you. I want nothing without you.
You refine my soul, making it shine with hope. Then fracture me leaving my hopeless once again.
I dont know where i belong with you, all i know is i'd rather not know with you then know and be without you. I miss all of you even when i have you because this i know never will i hold your heart, not all of it. I want all of you, your choas, your jealousy, your timed hate, your quiet love, your blistered soul, just hold it all, just once to know just once what it would be like to have all of you .... all of you loving all of me..


Love forever,
me