memo to you

Blogophilia 21.4 Topic: "Misspent Youth"

Bonus Points:

(Hard, 2pts): incorporate a pair of 'similes' (in other words USE two similes rather than the literal sense of 'a pair of similes')

(Easy, 1pt): use a guitar pick

Memo to you,

Like a moth to a flame my life is once again being rearranged. A ghost of the past sorts it like a comic’s laugh, making the complicated become entwined with the deranged, twisting and turning displacing the meaning of irony behind the mask. Searching through the years of my last using the guitar pick of my misspent youth the medley falls together crashing like fire and water somewhere in the steam is where I reside this is where I gladly live and happily die living life were the passions collide.

Shooting for the stars,

Me

Marvin am aiming high and when i say high i mean high on the list for the topic guess Just Judi

now i will ... aim for the heart (lol) for the list for the pic guess Evil Twin.

Friday ...

Dear you,

If it is fake that you say I am I can not convince you that way was not my plan. I do not sit back with a needle and thread debated which string to sew and which to pull. You say I doubt you and I keep you out but what you don’t see is that this is not my reality. I come to you on my knees not for sympathy but because the reality of leaving is now heavily barring on me. I come to you with bliss on my mind because the affection bliss gives I wish to share with not just any one. You say my emotions tag team ripping you at the seam making you brittle but I don’t understand how you can see me this shallow…when all I wanted to do is share my life with you. I do not doubt what it is you feel I do not doubt the real. I breath out in a sigh because last night, last night I went to bed finally with a small piece of mind. I talked to my friend and she held my hand, she silently told me the wounds would mend. Then I wake and I am lost because at sometime last night I was wrong? Some where I failed yet again, some where my footing slid and I find myself looking up out of a hole, naked and alone. I’ve opened myself completely not just parts but every bit of me I leave nothing left hiding. And yet I am fake and all I do is take? If all I do to you is bring a weight then why do you not leave me? Love can be forgotten people do it all the time they walk away with a tear in their eye and sorrow in their heart but after a while a friend that is worth while fills that whole in their heart. I don’t know where I had my fall but I am sure on my knees pathetic I belong. I can not convince you of something that I thought was real if all you felt was a fake appeal.

lost,
Me
　
　

Thursday. long

Mrs. Fear,

Your lies that are hidden behind those soft brown eyes lurk in the dark and focus on the tears from your children eyes. The words you said tore them down left them broken and unwanted vacant inside. The swift movement of your hand scarred their face broke their bones but that damage was small compared to the shattered heart your left in their ribcage. Your sweet smile, your innocent face graced the neighbors with with the daily pace but inside, insde that smile, that face was a nightmare and your true disgrace.
I remember when you caressed my hand, kissed my cheek, told me of your love and held me in your warm embrace the scent of lilies on your skin filled my lungs with love from within. Safety shattered, hatred grew when you were the mother that no one else knew. Why i ask, why i beg, why did you take my mother away? I begged, i tried, i tore down everything that i held close inside. I forgot my soul, i betrade my hope, i lied and stole and hated the world all because you told me so. You said i was weak, you said i dont belong, you said i was worthless and my life wasnt here for long.  The fear you gave i traded away and became what it was you gave me to be. Everyday i walked in hate, behind my eyes i hid those very same lies.
The day you took your last breath i felt nothing at all, another life gone, another life lost, a soul as blacken as hate itself. I didnt say good bye, i didnt cry but that night i return and pissed on your grave to properly wash you away.
Today i love more then you ever could of, i threw away your words i forgave the scars you left. i'm better then what u gave me to be, i am beyond the trash that i used to be. But still i ask why? still i beg why? why did you take my mother away? Why did you betrade the children who's lives they gave just to see the once kind smile on your face. Where was the mother i had that loved, did you think that trading her away was better? Did that bat fill the black when things ran red? Did you think you were stronger when you tied us and toldus not to make a peep? Did you find peace when you touched my cheek bruising it until i fell my body broken and weak? Strange to think i miss you still the woman you used to be before you fell draggin our innocents in to your hell.

miss you,
unwhole but healed

Wednesday.. yet

Dear You,

Today my heart breaks for i am not there. My heart empties with dispair, i think about the past and how it huants always telling me that i am not the one that your heart truely wants. But i am the one that your heart may settle for. With that in mind i accept my role knowing that i will lose no matter which way i go. For with this time i give myself not blindly but unconditionally.
My mistake takes me away takes me far from the place I'd be if i'd just stayed. I know not where i am headed but i know the final call. There i'll be waiting for thee waiting knowing it is not me that you will see when you reach that final destiny.

Love Forever,
Me 

Wednesday. my heart

Dear you,


Footsteps fade away in my memories and my mind is washed with what should have been. My heart it bleds to give you what can make you live.  While I hold back so I dont fade in your wind. Your transition is so rapid i beg to be free of you but here is stand knowing I am nothing without you. I want nothing without you.
You refine my soul, making it shine with hope. Then fracture me leaving my hopeless once again.
I dont know where i belong with you, all i know is i'd rather not know with you then know and be without you. I miss all of you even when i have you because this i know never will i hold your heart, not all of it. I want all of you, your choas, your jealousy, your timed hate, your quiet love, your blistered soul, just hold it all, just once to know just once what it would be like to have all of you .... all of you loving all of me..


Love forever,
me

Monday. still

I feel it fallen away,
    I feel it fading from me.
No longer the warmth of the light
    No longer the light of the brave.
I'm  lost the among the life
    That I once lead the way.
I've fallen in to the abyss of the gray.

I can't hold on,
    hold on to the light that once shined.
I can't find the steps with out falling once again.
My knees are bruised,
    my soul is broken
I feel it falling away
    as my skin fades to gray.

-©Liam

saturday.

So it Saturday and nonsense always seems to make the Sunday seem a bit more gleeful :)




i was reading this book called...the history of glue....i couldn"t put it down..

2 tv aerials fell in love..the wedding was rubbish, but the reception was brilliant

i went to a karaoke bar last night and discovered they did not play 70"s music..at first i was afraid, i was petrified.....

my bud Sid was the victim of ID theft..He"s just called S now

what "bipolar"?...a sexually confused bear

what do you call a sensitive, good-looking and intelligent man?.....a rumour

what do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?...a widow

"Doctor, Doctor, i have a strawberry on my head"...."i will give you some cream for that"



OK now on with the show

Have a great evening